Always Been You by Jess Buffett
My rating: 4 of 5 stars
A sweet story of love, trust, betrayal and reconciliation, Always Been You makes us think of the what if's in our lives.... and wish.
Seth returns home and Jared is determined to finally make Seth his. Unfortunately not everyone wants that to happen.
Seth Hall returns to his hometown for the first time in eleven years. Now a father of two, he vows not to let his past intervene when he sets up a happy, stable life for them. That is, until Jared, the boy who had broken his heart all those years ago, turns up wanting a chance with him.
Jared Stewart thought he had lost his only chance to be with Seth. When Seth finally comes home, Jared makes it his mission to catch Seth once and for all but unfortunately not everyone wants that to happen.
Will they be finally able to make a life for themselves together? Or will they be torn apart again, by people they thought they could trust?
Not for everyone, but...
The blurb says it all. Always Been You begins where Seth and Jared meet up and once more their love for one another resurfaces and they cannot ignore it or each other. Deep down in the relationship is a trust between two young men who faced betrayal from supposed friends and finally, years later, find that trust still strong. It is this trust that makes them communicate with one another and take up from where they had left off.
This is not the sort of plot that everyone can identify with or even want to read about. Some would say that this is too flimsy a plot; some would say that Seth is kind of pathetic; and some would say that this is a plot that is just too good to be true.
I say that these are the reasons why I continued to read this story and just enjoy.
Seth was bullied all his gay teen-aged life and Jared was there as his rock to hide behind and prop him up. He depended on this rock and when Seth is faced with a betrayal, his rock crumbled from underneath him and he floundered. He is unaware that Jared flounders too.
Fast forward eleven years later and we get two men, successful in their own rights, yet failures without one another. A tragedy brings them back together and their love flourishes.
This is where "hell hath no fury like a woman scorned" comes in, with a twist of Psycho and Fatal Attraction. The character of Becky was scary. Jess Buffett succeeded in creating a psycho-woman who scared me and both characters.
As for Seth? I saw him as someone who relied on his rock Jared for most of his young years and the perceived betrayal was so traumatic that he runs and continued to run. When he gains his rock once more, his flight or fight instinct kicks in when danger is perceived. However, due to his trust in Jared, despite his initial response of flight, he trusts. This is a very common type of character, I have seen and met many like these. There are just some people who rely on their Jareds and are the better for it. The question of "what happens if" comes when or if they lose that rock.
Now for Jared? I saw him as a rock who needed a rock to hold on to: Seth. Many perceive a manly man or macho man in Jared but forget that these types of men have a need of their own: their own Seths. Without Seth, this rock can tipple topple and fall over and cracks start to appear.
I honestly enjoyed this book, even though I know that many will disagree. I just find the character of Seth to be so real and common that I feel they should have their happy endings. Yes, Seth relied on his rocks Jared and his parents, and many would see this as a weakness.
But is the presence of support groups considered a weakness? I see this as just a part of life and if that keeps Seth and characters like him, strong, who am I to disagree?
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