Texan to the bone and an unrepentant Daddy's Girl, BA Tortuga spends her days with her basset hounds, getting tattooed, texting her sisters, and eating Mexican food. When she's not doing that, she's writing. She spends her days off watching rodeo, knitting and surfing porn sites in the name of research. BA's personal saviors include her wife (still amazing to say that), Julia Talbot, her best friend, Sean Michael, and coffee. Lots of coffee. Really good coffee.Having written everything from fist-fighting rednecks to hard-core cowboys to werewolves, BA does her damnedest to tell the stories of her heart, which was raised in Northeast Texas, but has gone to the high desert mountains and fallen in love. With books ranging from hard-hitting GLBT romance, to fiery menages, to the most traditional of love stories, BA refuses to be pigeon-holed by anyone but the voices in her head.
Book Name: Say Something
Author Name: BA Tortuga
Cover Artist: Angsty G
Jenson has loved Mike his whole life, but he has never known how to tell Mike how he feels. After high school Mike leaves for college and his Hollywood dream, while cowboy Jenson stays behind in their small East Texas hometown. Neither man knows what to say to go beyond friendship, even though they come together through all of the best and worst times of their lives. The most amazing moments keep bringing them back together, but through huge love and terrible loss, sickness and health, their timing never seems right to take their relationship to the next level. When the universe gives them one final chance, Jenson must overcome his fear and say the most important something before it's too late.
My Rating: 5 of 5 Stars
|Beautiful. Just beautiful.|
This was a frustrating book to read - but in all the best ways possible! It was just too uber delicious making it totally impossible to put down. The title does say it all: JUST FREAKING Say Something!!!!!
So we have two beautiful men, one a cowboy, the other an actor. Both had grown up together in somewhere Texas and were best buddies as well as lovers. They loved each other to pieces, distraction and destruction. But whereas Mike totally accepted his homosexuality, embraced it and loved all things pertaining to it, Jenson was just plain scared then eventually resigned to his being closeted. The tale of these two men span a decade or more and it is a tale full of love, happiness, heartbreak, friendship and more love and it is a worthy trip to take with them especially when their eventual happily ever after is reached.
Mike loved Jensen with a passion and never denied it but his need to get out of their hometown was great and his mother backed his every decision. Going off to college for drama school was the first step for his bright movie star future. He wanted Jensen to join him but knew Jensen could never make that final step. He still loved him anyway and supported him in every way.
Jensen loved Mike with a passion but was scared to admit it. To cover his tracks, he does the straight way and falls off the side of despair. He marries, has a child, gets divorced, and loses all, including Mike. But when he needed Mike the most, he took a chance and called. Mike came, it was a given, but when he asked to go back with the him, Jensen again refused.
Fear of fear is what drove Jensen through the years but for Mike, he faced his fears, went around them and just bulldozed his way through should it block him. His love for Jensen never faded, in fact it just grew through the years, but he was not a sap and so took his life by his own hands and moved on. When Jensen called, he went.
And so their lives played out until a finality raised its ugly head and eventual realization hits Jensen to say something before he lost Mike for real.
When it was finally Mike's turn to call, Jensen drops all and went. He has now only found the courage to say something.
This was such a beautifully frustrating book to read and it was so delicious in its deliciousness. A story that is about two men loving each other in a universal love that holds them together. Such a love between two people seems impossible but it does exist even in their most frustrating forms.
“So, this guy, he’s the one?” Ricky leaned over the edge of the bed, head dangling down.
“That kills brain cells, man.” Mike looked at himself in the mirror, working the thick pancake makeup to make the scar less noticeable.
“Uh-huh. So does green, and we smoke that. The scar is hot, honey. Leave it alone.”
“He’s, like, a real cowboy?”
“Uh-huh. We’ve been together forever. I just… I can’t believe he’s coming.” Really coming, here. Jenson. Finally. Mike touched up his eyeliner, and looked at himself again. Maybe glasses….
“You’re such a big queen.” Ricky laughed, waving at him upside down.
“You’re just jealous that I’m not your big queen.”
“Nah. You’re too toppy.” Ricky cackled, and Mike had to laugh. Everyone knew Rick would bottom up for anyone.
“Oh yeah. I’m a big bad leather daddy.” He turned and flexed, playing happily. Ricky was going to be a model. Hell, the guy was already working. Him, though, he still wanted to act.
He thought he could. His profs said he had talent. He just had his damned face to overcome.
The phone rang, and he spun around. “Oh God. Do you think it’s him?”
Note from multitaskingmomma: We sent an email through Will Parkinson (was actually trembling in anticipation and feeling a bit scared). It went like this: B.A. Tortuga is a fantastic author and has been around for quite some time. My question is not really a question, more like a need to know what the reaction is to this statement: "It's Not All About Farting Rainbows" Thankfully, she is a fantastic individual and came up with a truly hilarious response to that question that was really not. So here is a Guest Blog Post from the one and only: BA Tortuga (now you know why we love her :D)
Rainbow Farting Unicorns, Lesbians, and Writing Gay Male Characters: Writing What You Love and Damn the Consequences
So, I was asked about my reaction to the phrase, “It’s Not All About Farting Rainbows.”
I’ll be honest, I had to look it up. You see, I’m the person voted least likely to find either porn or controversy on the web. It’s not my thing. I’m honestly the happiest old bitch you’ll find. I’m married to the woman of my dreams, we live in the most gorgeous place, I have neat dogs, the best best friend in the whole world and my dream job. Grins
That said, I have been told that a lesbian has no business writing m/m romance because I neither have a penis nor do I borrow one. I’ve been told a lesbian has no business writing m/f romance (because, as y’all know, I’m into the women). I’ve been told someone living in the big city of Austin has no business writing cowboys. There’s also girls shouldn’t write horror, romance isn’t a valid genre because there’s happy ending, and don’t do anything that makes you and your readers happy because that’s threatening.
Shit, you know what? Someone’s always going to tell you to stop writing something because of some reason. As I see it, you have two choices: listen and stop or don’t.
This isn’t a war, y’all, and for every single book on earth, there’s a reader and, hey, love what you love. Leave what you don’t. This is fiction, this is creativity and hope and joy.
I’m not sure if I answered the question correctly, because my immediate reaction was, “I like unicorns and I love rainbows and my wife’s dog farts a lot and, wow, that’s some intense intestinal distress,” and then I started looking up whether chives on a dog’s food really stop the pooting (my mom swears by it) and then I saw this neat pattern for a crocheted green onion and then J and I started talking about whether to paint the kitchen green.
See? Basically happy. Writing what I love, living the life, sharing the joy.
Love what you love. Leave what you don’t.
Much love, y’all.
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